As those of you that have been keeping up with me know, I visited my very first immersive art Rainbow Vomit, a colorful immersive art experience located in downtown Dallas, in January of 2019! Visiting Rainbow Vomit in January was not only the beginning of my journey as a blogger, but it was also one of my first times getting out of the house by myself after months of being withdrawn from the outside world due to my symptoms!
7 months later, I have gained a couple of pounds of muscle, taught myself photography, restarted modeling (FINALLY!), and have gone to over 8 immersive and pop-up art exhibits since then! Things sure do change in 7 months, and Rainbow Vomit’s exhibit is no exception! As of August, the artists behind Rainbow Vomit have opened a new visually appealing attraction called “Night Mode”! If you like backlights and have been wanting to see Rainbow Vomit, I would suggest going to Rainbow Vomit “Night Mode” to have your fair share of blacklight fun! Below are some things you might find helpful before your visit:
Things to know before attending Rainbow Vomit Night Mode:
-LOOK FOR THE SECRET ROOM! Hint: it’s close to the entrance and the location is more obvious than you’d think!
-There is a DJ upstairs! This is helpful to know if you want to avoid loud noises or if you want to suggest some music!
-if you have epilepsy, please attend with precaution. There were not normally many flashing lights on or strobes going on during my visit, but there is a possibility that the DJ might choose to flash the lights based on how the crowd is feeling.
-Dress in something that will respond well to blacklight! White and neon colors show up well under blacklight!
-The staff and owners will help you take photos if you ask them! Take as many photos as your heart desires!
-It’s a great date night idea if you want something to do in downtown Dallas after taking your significant other to dinner! My boyfriend was not able to come to Rainbow Vomit “Night Mode” as he wanted to help me out with my duties at home, but I took him to another immersive art exhibit the next day and he loved it so I would recommend attending an immersive art exhibit as a part of date night any day!
-Night Mode is more suitable for adults as it is at night and can be something you do with your friends either before or after bar-hopping or clubbing! To those of you that hate going out to the club or bar (like me), Rainbow Vomit “Night Mode” is one of those things you can do without feeling too much social anxiety!
I personally don’t go clubbing or bar-hopping so Rainbow Vomit “Night Mode” was a wonderful Friday night experience to me that I attended with my good friend Jeremy LaRue! All the photos from my visit to Rainbow Vomit “Night Mode” were shot by Jeremy LaRue and you can see them below!
And now I present to you, the photos from Rainbow Vomit’s secret room!
I hope those of you that are considering visiting Rainbow Vomit “Night Mode” or just Rainbow Vomit attend as it is a visually captivating once-in-a-lifetime experience in a world of colors!
Details/Credits: -dress: Charlotte Russe | -shoes: Steve Madden 2018 | -photographer: Jeremy LaRue
If you are a millennial reading this and didn’t get to live out your 2000s dreams, look no further, you’ve stumbled across the right blog post! As a certified millennial weirdo who hated recess and wasn’t very popular on MySpace, the 2000s was more of a dark time for me so after attending the Museum of Memories, I feel like I finally got to satisfy my tweenage dreams to my heart’s content.
I had no real concept of beauty until I was 11 and no concept of body image until I was 12, when I first realized that having big thighs without a flat stomach was “unacceptable”. The 2000s wasn’t the best time to be an adolescent female because it was an era where tall, skinny girls were considered hot, and being thin was the standard of beauty for females. Scene girls who were popular on MySpace and the stereotypical preppy “popular” girls that dressed like Regina George (“Mean Girls” character) ran the show, and anyone that didn’t fit the mold was considered an outcast. Body positivity and mental health awareness weren’t popular concepts in the 2000s, neither was social media other than MySpace so there were really not many outlets for adolescents and teenagers that didn’t fit in to express themselves. I was in middle school in the 2000s and a size 2 brown girl with curly hair and glasses was an abnormality in Rochester, Minnesota in the era of “Mean Girls” and Paris Hilton.
I was tired of being bullied and ostracized by my peers so I would up free Bollywood gossip magazines from the local Indian grocery stores and studied photos of Bollywood actresses to learn what being a “hot girl” meant and how a “hot girl” dressed. 2000s fashion seemed so exclusive to me because it’s not like there were influencers tagging where they got their clothes from so the most I could do was assume what clothing was fashionable by observing the “popular girls”.
When I was invited to The Museum of Memories, I was excited that I finally got to bring the future me that occupied my middle school daydreams to life. I did my best to channel my inner “2000s hot girl” and live out my 12 year old fantasy of what I would look like in the future, apart from the fact that fantasy me is tall and real life me is short. I think that the 12 year old me would at least be satisfied with what I ended up looking like to a certain extent.
All of the murals at The Museum of Memorieswere hand-painted by the artist Steffi Lynn, also known as @haveanicedayy_ on Instagram! Unlike a lot of the other pop-ups that are good for photography, The Museum of Memoriesalso had exceptional art that brought each room and scene to life. Upon viewing the photos, I was shocked to see how realistic each mural appeared in the photos so it’s definitely worth paying attention to Steffi’s artistic talents when you visit! You can check out her store here to see more of her art, and the official Museum of Memories Instagram here as well!
I drew inspiration from the memories of the magazine images of Bollywood actresses whose beauty I idolized and the Disney Channel show “Kim Possible” and added some personal touches to my look for The Museum of Memories. Without further adieu, I present you with the photos of me living my 2000s dream! All photos below are by my friend Jeremy LaRue, as always! Jeremy frequents pop-up art exhibits often too so you should check his feed out if you have the chance!
Credits/Details: -Top: Aeropostale | -Skirt: Aeropostale | -Shoes: Steve Madden 2018 | -Photographer: Jeremy LaRue | Artist: Steffi Lynn
Not a day goes by that I don’t wake up with anxiety over getting older every day because getting older means more responsibilities, more bills, and more problems. I’m not too worried about the responsibilities, I say bring it on! However, I’ve been living with an IBD flare-up for almost 11 months that I haven’t been able to get under control, which has changed the course of my life and career path. Had my health cooperated with me, I was supposed to be in another country, living independently and working on building the career I had dreamed about for my whole life. IBD and IBS took that away from me. I am now 25 years old and trying to start my life over while I watch my peers are smashing their goals, achieving new heights in their careers, getting married, having children, having full-time or well-paying jobs, traveling the world, living on their own, and able to afford to pay for their meals. My list of worst fears got longer today because a year from now, I will not be on my family’s health insurance plan–which is scary for someone who has lived with multiple chronic illnesses her whole life and has to work multiple odd jobs to make a living. I have to worry about gathering money for private insurance and being denied or charged a higher amount due to my pre-existing conditions.
I’m not writing this post for anyone to feel sorry for me nor am I here to complain about my life. I just want to write a blog post that is more personal in nature so that there is more awareness raised about the struggles that people living with chronic illnesses and mental health disorders have to face. Society stigmatizes chronically ill individuals and individuals with mental health disorders on a regular basis as we as a society somewhat covet the idea of having a secure job working under someone else. Earning money, having a solid job, being able to have reliable transportation, and living independently are some truly empowering things for an individual, but when your independence is taken away from you through no fault of your own, what do you do?
To answer that question, I would need to present some more information first. According to RAND Corporation, almost 60% of American adults are living with at least one chronic condition, and 12%, which is roughly 30 million, are living with 5 or more chronic conditions. The AARDA reports that around 50 million Americans, roughly 30 million of which are women, suffer from an autoimmune disease. The National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) has estimated that 46.6 million adults living in the US experience a mental illness annually, but 11.2 million adults in the US experience a severe mental health disorder that limits major life activities. These numbers may not mean much to you, but as someone living with a plethora of debilitating invisible disabilities, these numbers somewhat define my life. I wake up every morning hoping that maybe today will be a good mental health day, and that maybe today, my health issues won’t bother me to the point where I only have enough energy to focus on healing.
To keep this post relatively short, I won’t go into detail on every chronic condition I have, but because there are millions of people suffering with a similar reality I have to face every day, I think it’s important that more people speak up about it so we can shed some of the stigmas surrounding being chronically ill. I spent my 25th birthday crying about how many important years I’ve lost to battling a chronic condition, whether it be mental or physical. My freshman year of college was lost mainly due to epilepsy. What was meant to be my sophomore year of college was lost to respiratory issues, specifically asthma, and the freakish hell of depression. I’ve been living with weird gastrointestinal symptoms for a long time, but it’s only been this past year that all of the gastrointestinal issues came down on me hard. Despite losing almost a year to IBD, IBS, SIBO, and other gastrointestinal issues, I wouldn’t say this is the most difficult battle I’ve fought considering that Post Traumatic Stress Disorder has claimed 7 years of my life.
I have never gone into detail about my struggle with PTSD on my social media due to the stigma that comes with being someone with PTSD who was not in combat. I spent 5 years out of the 7 years that I’ve had PTSD pretending to the world and lying to myself that I don’t have it and that it went away. My PTSD relapsed in August due to being triggered heavily, a month after my gastrointestinal issues began to take over my life so it wasn’t until this year that I started acknowledging my PTSD again. I remember on my 18th birthday that I felt afraid to go out and I was not able to celebrate my birthday, let alone anything for that matter. 7 years later, I never thought I would reflect back on a day that I never thought I would be reflecting on my 18th birthday and feeling as if not much has changed.
Disorganization and chaos are two common themes in my life, and I’d be lying if I were to say that PTSD wasn’t the reason behind it. I won’t go into detail about my struggle with PTSD because it still is a very personal subject for me, but I will admit that I miss the hyper productive person I used to be. Of course, I long for the day that I will be able to eat without pain and fear of diarrhea, but I long for days where I can work all day and accomplish goals even more. Looking back, it seems like that person is gone now and has been replaced with what is now the new me, with little direction and an unsure future. I have spent so many years fighting suicide ideation, which I’ve only had relief from for 7 months, that I didn’t think I would make it this far.
The reality of it is that I did make it this far, and the only thing I know how to do is rebuild. I don’t know where to go from here because I’ve had to change my direction with every obstacle life throws at me. Given all the confusion and change, it doesn’t come as a surprise that I feel so lost. I feel as if I’ve lost so many battles and continue to lose more battles every day, but I’ve definitely been able to adapt to everything life has thrown at me over time. Through all of the failures and trauma I’ve experienced, maybe I am a bit weathered, but I am definitely not the loser that the stigma from society combined with the monster that is depression tell me that I am.
Human beings are mammals and are naturally focused on survival. I’ve gained so many new skills as a result of just trying to survive. Until I sat down today and truly reflected, it never occurred to me how hard society is on individuals such as myself that live their daily lives with their survival skills compromised by these various chronic conditions. Living with debilitating chronic conditions, whether they are mental or physical, is different for everyone, but most of us have to know many different skills and do many different things just to make our every day lives work. According to The Invisible Disabilities Association, roughly 26 million Americans are living with a severe disability, but only 26% of these people use visible devices to help them with their disabilities. A lot of adults with debilitating chronic conditions work 9-5 jobs, but some, such as myself, choose to become entrepreneurs or do freelance work. Whether those of us that are living with debilitating chronic conditions work a 9-5 job or choose to earn money in a non-traditional way, we still strive to function in society and not let our disabilities control us. Living with debilitating conditions is a task of its own and it is different for each individual so while some people’s conditions may give them the opportunity to do what society defines as “strong” and “working through their struggles”, not all of us are capable of doing such. Just because I chose to be an entrepreneur, it doesn’t mean that I am less than someone else with a disability working a 9-5 job because circumstances vary on an individual basis. My point in presenting all of these numbers, facts, and anecdotes from my life is that you don’t have to be dealt the best cards to reshuffle the deck until you have a good hand.
With that being said, thank you to everyone who wished me happy birthday! I hope I am able to work to the best of my ability for the next 364 days to report from a better place in my life next year! All of the photos featured in this post were shot by my great friend Jeremy LaRue at Snap 151. Below are the rest! Thank you to those of you that read this post, and I wish you love and light! ~Kal
I’m over all of these adults and young adults putting on facades as if they don’t love candy. Don’t lie to yourself and acknowledge your inner child, CANDY IS GOOD!
But seriously, I can’t take anyone who can eat candy freely that says they don’t like candy. As someone who has dietary restrictions, I can honestly say even those of us with health issues that inhibit our candy consumption still love candy, we just don’t like what it does to us.
And still, even with this 10 long month flare-up from hell, I still ask for candy as my desired gift for birthdays and other occasion. I’m almost 25 so I’d be better off with botox than baby bottle pop, but I haven’t tried baby bottle pop yet so I feel like that’s a much more worthwhile gift.
So for a candy-lover like me, CandyTopia seems like the best place on earth, right?!
I wouldn’t say it’s the best as I would an unlimited vegan chocolate buffet to be a dream come true, but regardless of the fact, I still had a fun time. If you are looking to go to CandyTopia, I would recommend it, but there are just some things you need to know some things before your visit:
-You can’t go back into any rooms so once you move forward, you have to stay in that room or continue to move forward.
-Most of the rooms are timed. Have your poses ready!
-The bathroom is in the middle of the exhibit so please go to the bathroom beforehand! If you have a medical problem that can cause you to go to the bathroom frequently, prepare in advance or let your guide know! I didn’t eat anything prior to going to CandyTopia to avoid a bathroom trip!
-The candy sample boxes are usually on the sides of the room by the wall or at the front of the room before you enter the next room! Make sure you grab whatever samples you can have!
-Ask your guide for allergen information and read up on their official website on allergen information before you go!
-The lighting is problematic for DSLRs so if you’re going in with a DSLR and expecting to color correct these photos, just know that you will have to work with lighting that is optimal for iPhone/cellphone camera photos.
-Bring a backpack! There’s barely any spots to put your stuff down if you want to take pictures and have a lot of stuff to carry.
-Don’t touch any of the pieces that are made with candy!
-If you want to take pictures on the confetti wheel, it’s better to lay down or pose with your eyes closed or else you may squint in your photos! Just a fair warning to anyone who may be interested because you will see in the photos below where I had some trouble myself.
-There are probably going to be a lot of kids during your time slot so be wary of kids running around.
-If you don’t like loud noises, stay away from the cannon at the Marshmallow ball pit! The noise is EXTREMELY loud!
-There is a gift shop at the end if you want to buy some CandyTopia merchandise or some candy!
-Don’t be disappointed if your photos don’t turn out well! CandyTopia is honestly more for the experience rather than for the photos, as I learned from my visit!
I really wish I had read someone’s blog post about CandyTopia before my visit! I saw so many beautiful photos, but I still had a hard time taking some good shots there and I now understand why! The lighting was colorful and really different so it made everything harder when it came to taking photos, but my friend Jeremy LaRue, who I often visit immersive art pop-ups with, and I made some great stuff! All of the below photos were shot by him! Without further adieu, here are the photos from CandyTopia:
So as I mentioned before, CandyTopia is better to experience than to take photos at. If you do take photos and they don’t turn out well, realize that the goal is to get better memories than to take good pictures! If you decide to go to CandyTopia, I hope you have a wonderfully sweet time!